I have recently been playing with my very first Avatar Amberlynn. Oh I have jumped on her from time to time before. Usually just to check out all the free stuff out there. I have jumped on her when they have given out free Mesh heads from Catwa, Genius and quite a few more. I kind of wish I also put some skins in there when they would have 50 Linden Fridays or Gacha ones that I liked. You see even though I got some free heads or Bodies that were either half off or free I just never really put her together. I guess a bit I might have but to spend the time it takes to give her a beautiful look I just was lazy. This weekend I did just that. Went through all her stuff and brought Danni on to throw some of her shapes that are my favorites and of course body preferences. Again, in SL I can be lazy I do lots of work in my real life and like I am sure many people in SL I just want to have fun. Of course I have worked in there over the years but maybe time and age has changed me to the point I have no desire to work in Second Life.
I did this weekend put the work into her. I think I did pretty good since there was no one around but me on Danni to help me. I also had to go out and find a skin to match her body. Yeppers that was the big money or should I say lindens I put out everything else was already in Amber’s inventory just waiting for me to get on her and do the work.
Amberlynn was a memory of a time gone by, A time when everything was new and exciting. Where staring at the Second Life Ocean made me relax and never want to jump off line. I made some amazing friends on Amberlynn and lost someone who was in my real life and I loved so much but I guess really didn’t know her until we came to the virtual world.
I also had my first love of my Second Life on there and is seems like yesterday when Dallas was talking to me and I was blushing so hard in real life I could feel my real life cheeks burning. It was an experience I will never forget. Also the loss of love and friendships were the first time in my Second Life on Amberlynn. The pain and heartache and total shock that people you only knew from the virtual world could hurt you so badly was an experience most people have had.
Also learning was something I did on Amberlynn. I believe a lot of who I am today on the computer and with my job is from all the knowledge I accumulated from friends and SL family in there. It also gave me confidence in myself that I am pretty smart and also a belief in myself that I am worth it. If someone feels I am not than it is their loss. Yes… I have sure grown being on Amberlynn. The biggest thing I learned on her was how to bring the submissive girl inside of me out. It has helped me grow and explore my more kinky side and to be someone I never thought I could be because of all the things I have to be in the life I live. I have had to be the Alph in all things for more reasons then I care to go into. So when the babygirl comes out I am sure happy and contented more then words can say.
Amberlynn I guess I was pretty afraid of bringing around. She was a giant piece of my past. My growing years in Second Life.
In real I have kind of done what I did in Second Life. Made a wall of the years with friends and family. Even the ones who are no longer in my real life are up there now. I use to hide all the past pictures because it hurt to much the loss of certain people. I don’t anymore. One reason is all of those people had a part in the girl I am today. The other reason is simply that life is to short. Some day I will no longer be in the real world and of course the virtual world. We all someday will not. I decided to life my life at this stage of my life for me. To not keep looking back crying or wishing I could change what happened. There is really no going back and if you did try to fix things with certain people the relationship would still never be the same. You can only more forward and learn from the past and enjoy the rest of your life.
My your Second Life and Real Life be everything you want. Remember life it to the fullest there is no going back and re-doing that time.
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